In a harsh world with guys much skinnier and better looking than me, I created a fake boyfriend out of a straight friend to fit in. My entire life revolved around the relationship that only existed in my head. Every text post I made was about a guy who was so out of my league and would never touch me in real life. After a few months, I had a hard time separating fantasy from reality. The truth was he wasn’t mine, and he would never be mine. I tried photoshopping us together but it just didn’t blend well. He was right, I was wrong. I was weak, he was strong. He’s everything I wish I could be and never will be. Loving someone who doesn’t love you back is much harder than it looks. I’m not crazy, just mentally cracked. So I deleted my blog and I’m never coming back.